IM BACK

I have finally got a second to sit down after returning from seeing my brother home from Afghanastan.  What an amazing experience it has been being a sister of a Marine.  I am so honored.  Our trip was an eye opening experience at a lot of different things.  It made my appreciation of our freedom and the little things even greater than it was before if that is even possible.  Which brings me to the topic of the day, STRESS, and the role it plays in our lives.  I won't lie...those 7 months were pure mental torture and I wasn't even over there.  I couldn't imagine what they went through.  It was hard somedays.  I really had a hard time somedays just getting by.  I filled my days with STUFF...anything to keep my mind off what I didn't know was going on.  It really effected my weight loss.  Stress causes us to hold on to weight sometimes.  It did me.  I would work and work and nothing because I just couldn't let it go.  Towards the end it did get better.  It really did.  I gave up sitting and waiting and went out doing.  I realized I couldn't do that to myself and Josh wouldn't want me to.  That isn't what he is fighting for.  So now I am back and back on track.  I have revamped my gym routine and am well on my way to my goals.  I still have my worries...will he be deployed again etc.  How is he doing and coping now etc.  I decided all of those thoughts will exist along with everyday life. Besides I have a lot to be thankful for :)